Confused Foxelf

[nimdreams]

I feel very pissed off at myself for going back and forth on foxelf now. It's not like I used to live my life 100% elven each and every single day back when I was young. Elf was just my true self. Nothing more, nothing less. I didn't have to think about it, didn't have to maintain any sense of being elven. It was fine if it wasn't my main identity and at the forefront of my mind all the time.
My friends say I have elven vibes and they see me as an elf, which when I was younger would have made me feel so happy and elated, but now I just feel confused.