So, I said that I am not purely a psychological alterhuman anymore, and perhaps not even an atheist anymore, and it's true. I won't go into the details of what I wish to believe right now, because it doesnt match up with any existing beliefs and it also doesn't mash well with other people's beliefs, and I really don't want people to tell me I am wrong nor make other people feel that way. And yet, I felt like I had to say it again, because it's been on my mind.