Physically Nonhuman
Jun. 26th, 2024 12:00 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
nimdreamsWhat made me start identifying as physically nonhuman? It started with a fae kintype, an identity I haven't had all my life but discovered when I joined the community. I don't really remember when exactly that identity became physical, it happened gradually and I didn't write about it as I usually do, in my journal, and I didn't note down the date the switch in my mind happened either, because it was such a smooth transition. The reason for me though, is my health. I am autistic, chronically ill and disabled and am not the only one identifying as fae because of it. There is a history there.
Did it take long to accept? I guess not, one day I just realized "oh I identify as physically fae now" and that was it. It became a fact, something simple that made sense to me, not something to agonize over, nor did I ever really dive deep into these feelings. It is not that I am happy to identify like this per se. I don't really have strong feelings about it, except for that it is helping me deal with my health situation.
It happened quite recently for me, in the last few years. Starting with identifying as faekin, and then even when that identity (noemata of it) faded in the way I had it, the physical identity remained. I didn't call myself faekin anymore, but in my mind I thought "but my body is fae though". That thought remained, and now I am questioning if I want to still use faekin for this identity even if it is different from how I experienced it at first.
I have been quite private about this identity so far, but if you have more questions, I think I'd be willing to answer them!
Did it take long to accept? I guess not, one day I just realized "oh I identify as physically fae now" and that was it. It became a fact, something simple that made sense to me, not something to agonize over, nor did I ever really dive deep into these feelings. It is not that I am happy to identify like this per se. I don't really have strong feelings about it, except for that it is helping me deal with my health situation.
It happened quite recently for me, in the last few years. Starting with identifying as faekin, and then even when that identity (noemata of it) faded in the way I had it, the physical identity remained. I didn't call myself faekin anymore, but in my mind I thought "but my body is fae though". That thought remained, and now I am questioning if I want to still use faekin for this identity even if it is different from how I experienced it at first.
I have been quite private about this identity so far, but if you have more questions, I think I'd be willing to answer them!
