Illusion

Nov. 22nd, 2024 12:00 am
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On why I am probably dropping the shapeshifter label in favor of having the power of illusion.
A lot of my constels that I called kintypes before are shapeshifters, so no matter what I identified as, I called myself shapeshifterkin. Now that I am trying on my oneiric nonhuman kintype and constelic as my two identities, I have been questioning this ability. I don't think that beside my wings and gills that I don't have normally, but can manifest if I want to fly using wings or breathe underwater, I shapeshift much or at all. A lot of my experience in dreams aligns more with illusion powers.
My kintype used to be human and then became something else, but the way I look most of the time is still as a human. I know when I become something else on the outside, like a cat or a dragon, and what people see when they look at me, but the feeling of my body stays the same. This means that when I become a cat, my face lowers to the floor to cat height, but instead of feeling a cat body and cat size, I still feel the same size and I feel my body and limbs trailing behind me. So it is like I am floating low to the ground, moving by pulling myself forward on my hands, but I know everyone sees a cat and they treat me like a cat. Or when I become a dragon, I am flying high over the battlefield breathing fire over the armies down below me, and I know I look huge and intimidating like a dragon, but I still feel the same size. When I am a dragon or for example a winged feline, or when I have my wings on my human body, I do feel a pair of wings on my back, but for the rest I still physically feel a human form. When turning into a big cat, I lower my hands, go onto all fours and growl from my human mouth, while all of it only appears like I am shapeshifting as an illusion.
Since I have constels that are shapeshifters, such as my faery and fox spirit stels, I guess being a shapeshifter is still part of me in another way. Maybe one day, my kintype will gain the shapeshifting ability, and I will truly feel a different body in my dreams for the first time, but for now, it is not one of my abilities.
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