Settling

I seem to have so much difficulty to settle on a type. I keep trying (new) things on and switching labels around. I look longingly at others in the community who seem to have it figured out, and wonder and reflect and journal and rethink and try-on and keep searching deep within myself. I participate in the community, ask questions and try to implement what I learn. I try to not be too hard on myself. This is /my/ journey and it's gonna go the way it's supposed to.

But it's not always easy. Sometimes you feel lost for a moment, floating in nothingness. Until you can grab onto a piece of yourself again, get back up and keep going.
I hope I don't come across as wishy-washy. Like I try on anything I wish without thought put into it. Because a lot of my time actually goes into this. And maybe that shouldn't even be, maybe it shouldn't matter.