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nimdreamsIt was Tuesday January 4, 2022 when I woke up from an impressive dream. In it, I had met a god, underground in a cave. He was humongous and stood in a pool of lava. He was a god of rats, outcasts and misfits. Before meeting with this god, I met one of his followers and talked with him. This follower told me I am an outcast too, and he showed me in a mirror that my true self is a humanoid rat form. The follower took me to the god who asked for my soul and in return he'd give me the world.
This dream made a lot of sense to me, as I am treated like an outsider or outcast often in dreams. I am different somehow, and those around me in my dream notice that, and either want me to help because of my powers, or more likely, they completely spit me out.
After this dream, that rat form has stuck with me. I have been frequently shifting into it during wake hours. It took me 2 years to realize, this form is not going to go away. Sure I am a shapeshifter, so what is another common form? Except, this form is different; I am not a normal rat, I am a wererat.
It took me a while, but I figured out after the dream that this god had given me something special after all; even if I hadn't accepted his proposal, he had gifted me my true rat form and made me a wererat.
Wererat isn't just a form I take as a shapeshifter, as there is actual were- abilities tied to the form. Abilities I didn't have before, or in other forms. I am still working out what these are exactly, but examples are; seeing in the dark, extra physical strength, I also become more resistant to poisons, my stealth goes up, and my long, strong, weapon-like claws tend to carry diseases.
I wasn't bitten by another wererat, I don't think that would even work on an angel. I can spread being a wererat through biting someone while in my wererat form though.
It might sound silly to say I am a wererat as an angel, you might think they have a completely different vibe, but I consider myself equally light and dark. I'm an angel operating invisibly from the shadows, where I hide inside the walls with my intangibility, and the next moment I emerge shining with my bright golden light magic. If I am honest, I am quite selfish, and my kind of angels aren't all pureness and goodness, they're not perfect, not infallible, and then I am also a misfit among my own kind.
Most people would consider becoming a wererat a curse, but to me it felt like I found someplace where I belonged. It was meant as a gift, and I see it so. I am trying to embrace this side of me fully and be more open about it.
This dream made a lot of sense to me, as I am treated like an outsider or outcast often in dreams. I am different somehow, and those around me in my dream notice that, and either want me to help because of my powers, or more likely, they completely spit me out.
After this dream, that rat form has stuck with me. I have been frequently shifting into it during wake hours. It took me 2 years to realize, this form is not going to go away. Sure I am a shapeshifter, so what is another common form? Except, this form is different; I am not a normal rat, I am a wererat.
It took me a while, but I figured out after the dream that this god had given me something special after all; even if I hadn't accepted his proposal, he had gifted me my true rat form and made me a wererat.
Wererat isn't just a form I take as a shapeshifter, as there is actual were- abilities tied to the form. Abilities I didn't have before, or in other forms. I am still working out what these are exactly, but examples are; seeing in the dark, extra physical strength, I also become more resistant to poisons, my stealth goes up, and my long, strong, weapon-like claws tend to carry diseases.
I wasn't bitten by another wererat, I don't think that would even work on an angel. I can spread being a wererat through biting someone while in my wererat form though.
It might sound silly to say I am a wererat as an angel, you might think they have a completely different vibe, but I consider myself equally light and dark. I'm an angel operating invisibly from the shadows, where I hide inside the walls with my intangibility, and the next moment I emerge shining with my bright golden light magic. If I am honest, I am quite selfish, and my kind of angels aren't all pureness and goodness, they're not perfect, not infallible, and then I am also a misfit among my own kind.
Most people would consider becoming a wererat a curse, but to me it felt like I found someplace where I belonged. It was meant as a gift, and I see it so. I am trying to embrace this side of me fully and be more open about it.
